HOCD or Comphet

2021.11.27 09:34 Rich-Collection-5788 HOCD or Comphet

I am a 22 year old girl. I was 14 when I first felt HOCD. The day I started high school, a girl caught my attention. It was forbidden to wear earrings and jewelry at school, but she was a somewhat marginal type. I wondered why she caught my attention and not a man. Later I met a girl and felt her close to me. His father had a high status. The girl was brought up in a good family in my opinion. I think I like these. Then I started to think I was a lesbian because I thought and felt that way. I did research on “liking” the internet and started checking myself all the time while sitting in the same row as her.I used to dream that I touched or kissed her and wondered if I would like it. These thoughts started to bother me a lot. I came to the point where I could not stand it, I told my mother everything. Since I couldn't stand to sit next to the girl, I had a fight with her on the pretext of something. I sat in another row. my mom researched this online and took me to a psychiatrist. He diagnosed ocd and gave me medicine. I didn't use my meds. My mom said it was a disease, she didn't think I was a lesbian. I secretly never believed her because it was bad for my mother and she would never want me to be a lesbian. I relaxed for a while and it started not bothering me. but I always thought and felt that there was something different about me. I was only able to delay thinking now. When I looked at women, I started to feel that there was something different in my vagina. I was wondering if people were looking at naked women without feeling anything, and I was wondering if there was something wrong with me. I thought maybe everyone feels that way. later on, when I came into contact with women, I thought that I would feel something different. Other girls acted very close to each other, and I was worried that if I was close like them, I would definitely feel something different. and I was always uncomfortable with being too close. When I came into contact with women, I thought that their breasts or other parts would not touch me and I felt like I would be affected. Same with looking at beautiful women. and with these thoughts there would be a strange feeling of numbness in my vagina, a feeling of fullness. sometimes I would feel a whimper for no reason, and I thought I felt it because I was so into women. but while feeling these, there was a fear inside me that it was always like this. I did not feel pleasure when touching my girlfriends. Or I never had the thought of spending my life with a girl. My interest in men was on a more psychological level. sometimes i used to feel a feeling to some men that i feel inside my brain more. other girls would be with them, I would like to try it, I would like to be with men. But I thought they wouldn't like me. And when I had that psychological feeling for men, I would think, "I'm creating this in my head, I try to think that I like men because I think what I'm feeling is wrong. I'm not affected by men when I'm feeling these things." My high school years passed with these thoughts that came occasionally but did not bother me much. Then I started university. As I entered a new environment, my fears began to increase gradually. While I was staying in the dorm room, my roommate was a beautiful girl and I would sink into my bed with fear that I would feel something when I saw her naked. and there would be a feeling of fear in my vagina. Then I started dance class. there one day i had to try the moves with my girlfriend. We were doing tango and bachata. And I was afraid that when I touched her breasts against her body, I would feel something for sure and this time I would be sure that I was a lesbian. I felt a lot of reaction in my vagina and there was a lot of fear inside me. then I felt like I was attracted to a another friend I had just met who was a few years older than me. She was giving me advice and I felt closer than my other friends. this was the last straw. I was madly trying to control myself and figure out what I was. I did not know how I felt about men (sexually), as I had never been close to men until that day. There was a man whose appearance I liked. (I didn't feel like I really liked it, it felt like I was deceiving myself.) When I thought that I was getting closer to him, I realized that this idea did not bother me. but I couldn't quite imagine it. When I thought that I was getting close to women, I was very uncomfortable. I couldn't stand my thoughts and called my mother again. I told her “I was a lesbian and I felt so bad.”Then I went back to the doctors and therapy. A man came into my life while I was going to therapy. At first I thought I wouldn't feel anything for him. But while we were meeting as friends, we suddenly became close. We were together for 2 years and finally broke up. I had a compassionate love for him and he was like a friend with whom I could share everything. then we broke up and I came to this point again. Although I thought about it occasionally when I was with him, being with him gave me reassurance and relief. I felt lost after leaving. Day by day, my fears grew inside me and became huge. When I look at nude and beautiful women or when women are around me, I still feel something in my vagina, even if I'm not too nervous. This doesn't happen when men are around me. I still have that psychological feeling towards some men, but when I see their bodies, I don't feel that weirdness in my vagina. I was even a little nervous about touching men because I was always taught by my mother and society not to touch men too much. When I look at men, I feel like I want to touch them. and I enjoy it when I think I'm having sex. I also enjoyed having sex. I never had that psychological feeling in my brain for women that I feel for men. I don't see women that way. I want to marry a man and have children. but right now and most of the time I feel like I like women.. I don't know if I'm really into men. Even if I feel like I'm interested at that moment and I feel beautiful, these feelings always seem like a lie to me afterwards. I'm so tired now. I can't stand all this. I have someone in my life right now, We had a good time with him, I feel like I was impressed. but that seems like a lie to me too. I feel like I've always looked at women differently and loved my female friends differently, as if I was like that before the age of 14. I'm curious about your ideas. I still don't believe I have HOCD. I feel like COMPHet.
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Any tips on planning out what range of eyepieces to get, when using a (2x) Barlow to broaden that range?
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If I've understood how magnification works....
I can use the Barlow on the 25 to get the same magnification as a 12.5mm, which seems close to overlapping the 15mm.. But with the 20mm, adding the Barlow gives me the equivalent magnification of a 10mm, which also seems close.
They also offer a 32 plossl? Half that gives me the equivalent magnification of a 16mm? Although I was thinking down the track I'd by a more expensive 2" lense.
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As such, do you think maybe they'll be moved to the Troop slot as a more offensive troop selection? That way we have Custodian Guards with shield to be the damage soakers, and you use Wardens as an offensive troop choice with access to more offensive gear such as the axe.
Anyways, thoughts?
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2021.11.27 09:34 thoushallnotfindme Premier League Watch Thread - Saturday 27th November 2021

Fixtures :
12:30 Arsenal vs Newcastle
15:00 Crystal Palace vs Aston Villa
15:00 Liverpool vs Southampton
15:00 Norwich vs Wolves
17:30 Brighton vs Leeds
Will update Goals
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